Post by Serphius de la Ravin on Jan 26, 2007 12:50:55 GMT -5
Serphius wouldn't let Alexys out of his sight. He had to try and fix this, before it became a huge big drama and everything was a mess. Twice he fell in the Ice Pass, and now his knees and hands were sore and bruised. He'd lost his hat somewhere along the way in his mad dash after his friend, whom was close to flat out running. Finally, when they somehow managed to reach the Entrance Hall, he'd had enough.
"Alexys, stop! Please!" he yelled to the Lioano boy, who was almost about to leave. His quick pace faltered, and he turned to face Serphius.
"Why? Why should I? Isn't your little friend company enough?" he asked, with a sneer. He was struggling not to pant, like Sephy. Those boys weren't made for running.
"Please, Lexi, you're my best friend..."
"Best friend? yeah, right. I could so tell by the way you came to visit me all the time at the hospital wing after the attack..."
"I tried!" Serphius said, his voice strained, "I did! I even begged to stay there with you, but they said I couldn't...wasn't allowed..."
"Mm, yeah, right. I really believe that," Alexys snorted, "You spent the whole time with Cove! Have fun without me, did you? I bet you were glad to get rid of me, so you could spend more time with him! I obviously don't matter anymore!"
Serphius's jaw just about hit the floor. What the fuck was he talking about? How could he not believe him? True, he did spend some time with Cove, but he had been in pieces about Lexi being in the Medical Wing. He clenched his fists as a wave of anger just about bowled him off his feet.
"Yeah. Okay. I admit it. I spent as much time as I could with Cove! I only tried to see you three times! I went places with Cove. I did, and I loved it!" Serphius spat back, his voice a bitter, sharp staccato that echoed through the round room, "And you want to know why I loved it? Hmm? Because I like him! He's actually nice to me! He's not a jealous little boy! He honestly treats me like a real, living, breathing,feeling human being, instead of a toy! He talks to me, he respects me, he listens to what I have to say, and how I feel, and I love him for that! I love him because he's everything you're not, Alexys!"
"You ungrateful little bastard!" Lexi snapped back, "How can you say that about me? After everything I've done for you, and you just throw it back in my fucking face! Have I not been there for you all these years? Yeah, who was it that reached out for you in that corridor? Stopped you from getting your ass whooped for the thousandth time? Who was it that has kept you safe and sane all this time? Who was it that's stopped you doing those stupid things to yourself? Me! It was me! I've poured my everything into you, and all I get in return is this..."
"When we are alone together," Sephy said through clenched teeth, his voice quavering a little, "You can be the most wonderful boy in the world. You're sweet, and gentle, and funny. When I'm alone with you, I feel safe, and special! I do, I really do! You make me laugh, and you make me forget about everything that's happened. That's who done all that! That's the Alexys I fell so in love with! But with other people...it's like you're someone totally different! You're cruel, and loud! You humiliate and belittle me! I hate it! I can't stand it! It brings me straight back home. You touch me then, and my skin crawls. It's like you're showing off who's boss, and god, I can't take it! I can handle things like that! I'm not strong enough to say anything back, and I feel like dying! With Cove...He's not like that, ever. Cove is so kind, and so sweet and beautiful! He makes me feel so warm and happy inside. I could just be with him forever...He would never hurt me like you do..."
The silence that followed Serphius's monologue was crushing for both boys. The elder was taking blows left right and center, and the lanky Intermise was on the verge of hysterical tears. He'd never spoken like this to anyone before, never mind Lexi.
"And I loved you." Was all Alexys said in reply. He felt like breaking something. At the moment, it was Cove's nose.
"Shut up!" Serphius almost shrieked. Apparently, he'd reaching breaking point. From now on, his words were a vitriolic rush of pent up feelings and confusion. He had no idea where it was coming from, "Shut up! There's a difference between loving someone, and fucking them, so learn it! Sure, you say you love me - you tell me every night, in fact, twice if you're feeling frisky! Your version of love is a trite! You don't know what it means! You don't fucking love me! You never have! You've wanted me, you've needed me, but you've never loved me. I'm sick fed up of being your perverted play thing, Alexys, and I'm getting fed up of you! You're nothing but a spoiled child! I want more than that. I want new friends, I want new lovers! All there's ever been for me is you, and you don't know how that feels! You're a liar and a filthy hypocrite. You can do whatever you please, with whoever, but I can't? I don't want to feel this way anymore! I don't want to be in love with you like this anymore!"
"Then go! Go back to Cove! Go back, and snuggled up to your precious Fina boy! I don't care, and I don't need you! Lets just see how long he'll put up with your stupid issues!" Alexys yelled, furious tears threatening to run down his cheeks. He stormed away, rubbing his eyes. He didn't cry. Only babies cried! With a loud bang, he kicked open the door, and brushed out of the Entrance all, leaving Serphius alone to bathe in the resounding silence. Serphius felt absolutely drained, both emotionally and physically. With a choking sob, he dropped to his knees with his head in his hands. And to think he'd followed to sort things out...
"Alexys, stop! Please!" he yelled to the Lioano boy, who was almost about to leave. His quick pace faltered, and he turned to face Serphius.
"Why? Why should I? Isn't your little friend company enough?" he asked, with a sneer. He was struggling not to pant, like Sephy. Those boys weren't made for running.
"Please, Lexi, you're my best friend..."
"Best friend? yeah, right. I could so tell by the way you came to visit me all the time at the hospital wing after the attack..."
"I tried!" Serphius said, his voice strained, "I did! I even begged to stay there with you, but they said I couldn't...wasn't allowed..."
"Mm, yeah, right. I really believe that," Alexys snorted, "You spent the whole time with Cove! Have fun without me, did you? I bet you were glad to get rid of me, so you could spend more time with him! I obviously don't matter anymore!"
Serphius's jaw just about hit the floor. What the fuck was he talking about? How could he not believe him? True, he did spend some time with Cove, but he had been in pieces about Lexi being in the Medical Wing. He clenched his fists as a wave of anger just about bowled him off his feet.
"Yeah. Okay. I admit it. I spent as much time as I could with Cove! I only tried to see you three times! I went places with Cove. I did, and I loved it!" Serphius spat back, his voice a bitter, sharp staccato that echoed through the round room, "And you want to know why I loved it? Hmm? Because I like him! He's actually nice to me! He's not a jealous little boy! He honestly treats me like a real, living, breathing,feeling human being, instead of a toy! He talks to me, he respects me, he listens to what I have to say, and how I feel, and I love him for that! I love him because he's everything you're not, Alexys!"
"You ungrateful little bastard!" Lexi snapped back, "How can you say that about me? After everything I've done for you, and you just throw it back in my fucking face! Have I not been there for you all these years? Yeah, who was it that reached out for you in that corridor? Stopped you from getting your ass whooped for the thousandth time? Who was it that has kept you safe and sane all this time? Who was it that's stopped you doing those stupid things to yourself? Me! It was me! I've poured my everything into you, and all I get in return is this..."
"When we are alone together," Sephy said through clenched teeth, his voice quavering a little, "You can be the most wonderful boy in the world. You're sweet, and gentle, and funny. When I'm alone with you, I feel safe, and special! I do, I really do! You make me laugh, and you make me forget about everything that's happened. That's who done all that! That's the Alexys I fell so in love with! But with other people...it's like you're someone totally different! You're cruel, and loud! You humiliate and belittle me! I hate it! I can't stand it! It brings me straight back home. You touch me then, and my skin crawls. It's like you're showing off who's boss, and god, I can't take it! I can handle things like that! I'm not strong enough to say anything back, and I feel like dying! With Cove...He's not like that, ever. Cove is so kind, and so sweet and beautiful! He makes me feel so warm and happy inside. I could just be with him forever...He would never hurt me like you do..."
The silence that followed Serphius's monologue was crushing for both boys. The elder was taking blows left right and center, and the lanky Intermise was on the verge of hysterical tears. He'd never spoken like this to anyone before, never mind Lexi.
"And I loved you." Was all Alexys said in reply. He felt like breaking something. At the moment, it was Cove's nose.
"Shut up!" Serphius almost shrieked. Apparently, he'd reaching breaking point. From now on, his words were a vitriolic rush of pent up feelings and confusion. He had no idea where it was coming from, "Shut up! There's a difference between loving someone, and fucking them, so learn it! Sure, you say you love me - you tell me every night, in fact, twice if you're feeling frisky! Your version of love is a trite! You don't know what it means! You don't fucking love me! You never have! You've wanted me, you've needed me, but you've never loved me. I'm sick fed up of being your perverted play thing, Alexys, and I'm getting fed up of you! You're nothing but a spoiled child! I want more than that. I want new friends, I want new lovers! All there's ever been for me is you, and you don't know how that feels! You're a liar and a filthy hypocrite. You can do whatever you please, with whoever, but I can't? I don't want to feel this way anymore! I don't want to be in love with you like this anymore!"
"Then go! Go back to Cove! Go back, and snuggled up to your precious Fina boy! I don't care, and I don't need you! Lets just see how long he'll put up with your stupid issues!" Alexys yelled, furious tears threatening to run down his cheeks. He stormed away, rubbing his eyes. He didn't cry. Only babies cried! With a loud bang, he kicked open the door, and brushed out of the Entrance all, leaving Serphius alone to bathe in the resounding silence. Serphius felt absolutely drained, both emotionally and physically. With a choking sob, he dropped to his knees with his head in his hands. And to think he'd followed to sort things out...